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Vibin’ (Episode Four)

For a decade and a half, this hellhole has been my adversary.Amongst the walking dead, this prison system’s like a mortuary.

Out of sight, out of mind. I now understand that premise.

Took my sight and made me blind and didn’t leave a witness.

But, when you’re dealing with a fighter,

you should know what the business is.

At first I was confused, now I know what the sickness is.

Loneliness…

So much pain and anger it could bring about.

Stuck inside my soul, grabbed that demon and I pulled it out.

Found a strength inside of me that I never even knew about.

Analyzed this madness and this chaos that I am surrounded by

Looked deep within their essence

And realized what they’re hounded by.

Abandonment, betrayal; so many lies from their family.

I know I messed up but damn, this is how you handle me?

I mingle with these lost souls, we’re an unspoken brotherhood

But I wouldn’t have to love em’

If their mothers and their brothers would…
“Some of us are punished twice; first by the judge, then again by our loved ones.” 
~ Jah Soul

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Once Upon A Time

The other day I was reading the paper and was amazed, really outraged by some of the things I read. These youngsters are crazy, I swear! They are out killing and robbing like it is natural. They do some of the stupidest things I have ever heard of. Then I thought, “Man! I was once like these lost individuals!”.

People had to read about things I had done and probably said the same thing about me and my crew. Then it crossed my mind that I am older and more mature now, so I can now see and understand the mistakes I’ve made and grateful to still be living so I can try to make amends for my past transgressions.

Now I must sit back and stop being so critical of others I see that are in the same situations I was once in. In due time, they will see the madness in their ways, and maybe make a change.

If not, they’re in for a rude awakening because doing time will clear your mind; one way or another. Doing time will either change your thoughts and perceptions or will scramble them.  Always remember though, be careful of the decisions you make because if you don’t change your ways, your thoughts will be changed by doing time or doing death. If you do death, your mind will not be able to change because your mind will stop…period!!!

– Thomas D. Payne